Sunday, March 30, 2014

Ovulation Tests (oh joy) My Struggle with PCOS

Trying to conceive is not new for Nathan and I. We have been 'trying' since October of 2012. Back then, it was a relief every month we didn't get pregnant. (Play with fire, you're gonna get burnt?? Not us. I think I must work for the fire department or something)  

In June of 2013 we got 'serious' about trying. 'Serious' meant, we sorta started to get bummed out when nothing happened. (Still, kinda excited when it didn't though) I still wasn't tracking anything or going to the Dr. We were just more 'in to it' I guess you could say! (I have no idea why I am using ' '. But for some reason I can't stop!)

In October of 2013, I meant business. We'd been married for a year (clearly a long time), I had just had another birthday (which until earlier today I thought was my 26th, it was actually my 27th. I am 27.) I went for my yearly appt (every women's favorite day of the year). Told my Dr we had been trying for a year with no luck. He told me I was young, had been on BC for a long time and we just needed to 'do it like rabbits' (direct quote). So, we took his advice, but also sought out other advice. I started taking ovulation tests. The first month, I ovulated. Whoo hoo! But, we didn't get pregnant. (This was a whole debacle in its self. I was late for the first time in my life. Got excited. Had morning sickness like crazy. Tested negative. Still had morning sickness like crazy, still never for a period (for the first time ever). Went to the Dr. He said he thought I was pregnant. Got excited. Told a few people. Then 3 weeks later, started my period. Went to the Dr. Said I probably had a first trimester miscarriage. Went back to the dr a few weeks later and he said I was probably never pregnant. Crazy right?) I have taken ovulation tests every month since and have never detected an ovulation. 

I went back to said Dr and told him what was going on. I asked to be prescribed Clomid. He told me we were young and 'probably didn't want kids right now anyways' (another direct quote). Well, Mr. Do it Like Rabbits, that is false! We DO want kids right now. 

I changed Dr's. Told them new dr what was going on and she prescribed me Clomid and sent me on my way. Took the clomid and no ovulation. Tried to make a follow up appt and her calendar was too full. (Really?) 

So, changed Dr's again. That is where I am today. She prescribed me Clomid to start next cycle, but said to keep testing ovulation this month because 'you never know, it could happen'. Well, not happening. We've gotten a negative test every day this cycle. There are 11 more days until my cycle starts again, so we will keep testing. 

Until then, it has really gotten me thinking about these stupid ovulation tests. If it is a negative, there is a blank circle. If there is a positive, there is a smiley face. Blank circle? Really? I could come up with something better than that. Maybe try and make people laugh. 

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I mean, let's get a little creative here people. I have been staring at these tests every day for the last 6 months. They are SOO boring! Let's add some spice to our lives. 

For the last month so, my husband has gotten in on this. (Only because the cup I use to test with freaks him out. He started asking questions and came away with much more than he bargained for. Life with me is a constant adventure). It had kind of turned into a game for us. We make bets, take wagers, sit...and wait. Longest 3 minutes of my day, every day! But those 3 minutes are spent with my husband, staring at a stick that will hopefully tell us our future! (Oh and don't forget, 20 sticks cost $40. They really know how to stick it to you with this infertility. Just kick us while were already down!) 

So, for everyone out there who stares at the same blank circle I do every day, think of your own slogan. What would your test say if you could create one! 

1 comment:

  1. I have never had a problem getting pregnant, i have had miscarriages though, which is devastating. In Gods time you will have one of ur own, until then enjoy the kidless life lol. When you finally see that positive, or are blessed in another way, it will be one of the most joyess moments of your life:-)